Embrace the Bacongal, and what ever I'm itching to say !

Last week I received a out of the blue yet welcome email from Prissy, stating she would be in town for Missy's Phd defense and would love to get together.  She, now living in a land locked state that I won't name, except it's popular with Mormons, decided we would meet in Newport. Riddick and I had limited time, like as in 30 hours...but we were excited for the time we had with her. We all walked and talked, met her new love...all was good.  On our way home I wanted to get some peanut butter taffy, because I love peanut butter taffy. Now, 27 pieces of taffy later, I can't poop to save my life.  I feel like I have a taffy demon lodged in my bum and oh it's not fun. I will not post pics, but send me some cleansing thoughts so I can release the demon

Riddick is off, off to gold mine this summer in southern Oregon.  I'll be visiting him when my schedule permits.  This has been a dream of his since we were dating, to go back to gold dredging for a season. Riddick spent 4 months in 2008 dredging on the Klamath river, this time he's on the Rogue.  His time is limited I'm afraid.  Limited because of environmental laws and limited by  his own health and abilities. I'm not crazy about being alone for weeks at a time, two week intervals to be exact, however small that seems, it's tough.  At least this time my husband isn't going to Central America to bonk his whore, at least this time my husband is actually working and missing me. To be completely honest, completely, like way toooo honest, I love to put little slams on this blog, as I know he and she read it, and both of them are spineless and don't comment.  You know if someone implied that I was a whore, Riddick would comment lol oh I am funny

We all are taught, or at least I hope everyone was, to tell the truth.  It's a great time saver.  As someone who is very busy I don't have time or tolerance for bullshit.  So I tell the truth, and I appreciate it when people do the same to me, in fact I appreciate it so much that I tend to cut liars out of my life completely and they end of standing around wondering what the hell happened..."where did Janice go" Ha!

But that doesn't make us friends.  My open hearted kindness often leads folks that don't know me too well to think that perhaps I'm weak or easily controlled. That is a huge error in judge ment.    One of my personal ethics is to do my best to go through this beautiful life doing the best that I can and causing as little pain as possible.  That doesn't mean I'm just a smile and silence and a source for money.  I have feelings, opinions, flaws, fears, oddities just like anybody else.  It's painful to realize in the course of everyday life that there are people that you share loved ones with, that should be, but will never be your friends.  In fact they are a bigger source of discomfort for the simple reason that they do love some of the same people and therefore have access to your heart. So all I can do, is all I can do, which is continue to do my best to love like I mean it, live like I mean it, and pray like I mean it, for my own guidance ...

I am smart, funny, insecure, loyal, short, groovy, irritating, spoiled, employed, kind, logical, cheap, focused, distracted, difficult, easy going, insightful, forgiving, honest. I am not mean, deceitful, vengeful, skinny, secure, shaken, hated, envied, errant. The first list makes me sound like a Labrador Retriever, actually the second list does too.

Life is just too damm short to wear uncomfortable shoes that leave my hoofs looking like this   So I tossed those shoes in the garbage and moved on with life!

Not my own pink gums that hold my teeth in my mouth, but the kind you buy.  I chew gum until the flavor is gone and than I spit it out and get another piece.  I don't swallow it because one time when I was no more than 7 years old I heard that gum takes 10 years to come out of your digestive track, and well since I'm very sensative to when and how often I go number two, I don't want that to happen. Double bubble is my gum of choice for sitting at home, watching tv, reading, whatever.  I even like the mixture of flavors when I have drank a beer while chewing, very interesting indeed Chiclets, peppermint white flavor, is what I prefer at work.  The combination of chewing a new piece and drinknig water is very refreshing and does wonders for waking me up. Right this moment it's Orbit..spearmint.  So far so good, but don't try it with diet Coke.