We love the same people

But that doesn't make us friends.  My open hearted kindness often leads folks that don't know me too well to think that perhaps I'm weak or easily controlled.

That is a huge error in judge ment.    One of my personal ethics is to do my best to go through this beautiful life doing the best that I can and causing as little pain as possible.  That doesn't mean I'm just a smile and silence and a source for money. 

I have feelings, opinions, flaws, fears, oddities just like anybody else.  It's painful to realize in the course of everyday life that there are people that you share loved ones with, that should be, but will never be your friends.  In fact they are a bigger source of discomfort for the simple reason that they do love some of the same people and therefore have access to your heart.

So all I can do, is all I can do, which is continue to do my best to love like I mean it, live like I mean it, and pray like I mean it, for my own guidance and for blessing all that pass before me.

All that I am

I am smart, funny, insecure, loyal, short, groovy, irritating, spoiled, employed, kind, logical, cheap, focused, distracted, difficult, easy going, insightful, forgiving, honest.

I am not mean, deceitful, vengeful, skinny, secure, shaken, hated, envied, errant.

The first list makes me sound like a Labrador Retriever, actually the second list does too.

Just too short.....

Life is just too damm short to wear uncomfortable shoes that leave my hoofs looking like this

 

So I tossed those shoes in the garbage and moved on with life!

I am a gum eater

Not my own pink gums that hold my teeth in my mouth, but the kind you buy. 

I chew gum until the flavor is gone and than I spit it out and get another piece.  I don't swallow it because one time when I was no more than 7 years old I heard that gum takes 10 years to come out of your digestive track, and well since I'm very sensative to when and how often I go number two, I don't want that to happen.

Double bubble is my gum of choice for sitting at home, watching tv, reading, whatever.  I even like the mixture of flavors when I have drank a beer while chewing, very interesting indeed

Chiclets, peppermint white flavor, is what I prefer at work.  The combination of chewing a new piece and drinknig water is very refreshing and does wonders for waking me up.

Right this moment it's Orbit..spearmint.  So far so good, but don't try it with diet Coke.

The Goodmorning chicken wing

The one thing I don't have

Each day I try to remember to be happy and joyful in all my blessings, instead of thinking of the one thing that I don't have.

Today I am skating towards payday with less in our checking account than I'm comfortable with.  I'm being stubborn and won't transfer funds from savings. 

Reminding myself of all the things in my life that are lovely and joyful.

My family, home, loving pets, flowers, chickens that just gave me 5 eggs, the hummingbird I cannot seem to get a good picture of, my guitar, the kindle app, my health, Riddick's health.

Today my friends be joyful in all that you have, don't let the one thing you lack be the ruin of this day!

Films that remind me of my childhood

Star Wars, the first one, ofcourse.  It was very late May or June of 1977.  I remember that I had just had my birthday so it had to be after May 23.  I was five. 

We were all waiting in line at the SouthGate theater on 99E.  My parents, myself and my older brother.  I can't tell you if there were other children there that we knew, that we had brought with us, because there were people everywhere.  I can remember waiting in a long line behind the ropes made of stuffed fabric that attach to the little metal doo dads. 

Once we were finally seated I had the usual un controlled exceitiment waiting for the lights to dim.  That was the big signal.

The overwhelming feeling of awe and suruprise when the Battle cruiser being chased by fighters filled the screen from over my head.  Coming from behind me and flying right over, it was amazing.  I can still remember how scared I was in the first scene of viewing Darth Vadar. 

What movie do you remember?