Have you ever ached for someone? I do.
I ache right now to be with Riddick. We've been like ships passing in the dark night, for four days, while I'm on night shift and he's on days. It's odd to enter our home, empty, but all the signs of someone having just been there. The drip of coffee on the counter top is still wet, the dogs haven't quite settled in on the bed yet, waiting for me to arrive. The fan in the bathroom is still running.
My ache is also for my parents. I know I do not have the corner on the market for loss. Not having your parents alive and having your spouse's parents still alive puts an odd spin on it. I don't have children of my own, so I feel much like a parasite on Riddick's family. I don't think I'm treated as a parasite, I just feel like one.
I had to set my blog aside while I finished my degree and adjusted to new challenges at work. I moved into a management position in 2016 and also decided to further my education.
While I can say that I am happy I did it, I can also say I am happy it is done. My college education has always been done while working full time. The majority of my schooling has been funded by employer provided educational assistance. While that is a gift I am grateful for, it did not pay for all and it required me to work full time and school 3/4 time.
Working and going to school was much easier in the 20's than now in my 40's. All of a sudden I feel my age creeping into my life like mold. I know it is partly because while pursuing this most recent educational goal I also had major knee surgery, leaving me in a wheel chair for six weeks. I felt the consequences of my age in fatigue from working and studying but also in the comparison between recovering from a hysterectomy in my 30's qu…
While I can say that I am happy I did it, I can also say I am happy it is done. My college education has always been done while working full time. The majority of my schooling has been funded by employer provided educational assistance. While that is a gift I am grateful for, it did not pay for all and it required me to work full time and school 3/4 time.
Working and going to school was much easier in the 20's than now in my 40's. All of a sudden I feel my age creeping into my life like mold. I know it is partly because while pursuing this most recent educational goal I also had major knee surgery, leaving me in a wheel chair for six weeks. I felt the consequences of my age in fatigue from working and studying but also in the comparison between recovering from a hysterectomy in my 30's qu…
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