And I don't know why. I've wondered if it's my own insecurity. But it's more than that.
I believe it stems completely from not being a mother. I'm always sucking hind tit so to speak when it comes to a place in the lives of the children I have helped raise.
That point has been brought home to me very clearly in the past 24 hours. Right now I can best describe my feelings as feeling like I have mosquito netting between myself and my step kids. I am not in control of that netting, and neither are they, but it exists and all it does is filter out what each of us has to say.